affairs

y do pple haf affairs? i rem last yr, i was blown away by e news dat my gd fren had an affair wif my other gd fren, n his gf was another fren of mine too... thank God everythin is ok now...

then i heard abt another affair in my office... involving pple i noe... as in they r my frens... of cos they duno dat i noe... but after e 1st incident last yr, this didnt impact me dat much...

now there is another affair dat i noe of... involvin family... but of cos this extended family of mine alwayz has affairs n its common... but this family of mine is v close to my heart... it pained me like mad when i knew of it...

wat e heck man??? wat is goin on in this sinful world???

yes we r all sinners. no sin is greater than e other. God didnt sae onli pple who haf affairs go to hell. neither did He sae dat onli if u haf affairs then u haf sinned. so who m i to judge. so i m not judgin here. i do not judge u who had an affair. i juz feel sad. n of cos i will never noe y u did it. n maybe u duno too. n since u dun wana tell me ur story, i respect it. n u might b obessed wif ur new found person dat u stop readin my blog too. but nmind. i wish u would read this one dae...

pple who haf affairs, r they selfish? cos they forsake e rship dat they haf built fer so long... incidentally e 3 affairs dat i mentioned, they all r rships dat r at least 10 yrs... they destroy not onli e trust dat has been built over e yrs wif their partner, but wif their family n frens whom treasure em. but its their life rite? they live as they wan to. true. but as close family/frens, can we speak into their lives n shine a lite into their confused/dark path?

u might sae: who saes e path is dark n e person is confused? maybe this is e best decision they haf made in their entire life! but then, y muz a person jump from 1 rship, wif all e baggages, n enter head-on into another one? is it a logical n clearly-reasoned decision? y cant they end e current rship properly, haf some time alone to c wat they truly wan in life? then make an informed decision abt wat they wan to c in their future partner? cos they treat e new found partner as a life-buoy?

ok it takes 2 hands to clap. u might b deprived of somethin from ur other rship, e other party might haf drugged u n when u woke up, u were in bed wif e person... blah blah... who noes n who cares... cos in e end u alreadi decided. n even God gave us free will, so who is anyone to tell u wat to decide?

juz dat humans r creatures who live in a community. we make decisions. but we muz alwayz rem dat our decisions impact pple. do we go arnd makin decisions dat onli make ourselves feel hapi n forget abt e whole world? ya i guess u can sae 'of cos! i need to live hapi wat... cant b i sacrifice myself fer e world wat!!'

ok then gd fer u if u can live like a hermit wif ur partner. or maybe u will haf frens. but ur frens would b those who think e same as u. haf e same values as u. y we cant accept it is cos we love u n dun wana c u go down this path. e path of viewin ur world as onli urself n wif no one else. r u truly hapi like this? avoidin e whole world? how long can u avoid us?

i still love u as family. i will still b there fer u. but i find it hard to accept ur partner which u chose. maybe time will heal all wounds. but u noe wat, if ur partner can do this wif u, wat does it sae abt ur partner's character? or r u wif ur partner cos ur partner reminds u of somethin u wan so badly? or cos ur partner helps u avoid commitment n settlin down? or cos ur partner represents freedom? then 10 yrs down e road, when ur partner wans commitment n cant go to e place u so desire, would u still wana b wif this person?

actually i think im utterin total rubbish. but who can think logically in such situations? even i, an outsider cant, can u? please dun use ur partner to avoid ur situation. wat is it dat u love abt this person? maybe one dae we can c how wonderful ur partner is. maybe ur partner is reali fantastic. but where was e first committment u had wif ur ex? can love die juz lidat? then one dae ur partner might juz run to another person cos dat person has beta qualifications/more money/more free-spirited/etc than u... n u haf e choice to desert ur partner anytime cos when u entered into a rship wif this person, u broke e commitment u had wif ur current partner.

nevertheless, fer ur own gd, juz bring it out to e lite n intro ur partner to everyone if dat is wat u decided. wat goes on in e dark is never gd. hiding things would onli encourage more darkness n confusion... bringing it to lite can help us support u... of cos u will think nobody will support u after i sae until lidat rite... aiyah... will support u as an individual still la... e rship, we duno anythin so cant comment...

ok i said enuff. thanks to u all who even read till here. juz some food fer thought fer us i guess... n do love n stay committed to ur partner dat u r wif or will b wif... i will b prayin fer u...

who said there is no free lunch?

my fren brought me fer lunch yesterdae at spore's 1st self-grilled yakitori place!!!!!!! of cos who noes if its 1st or not but dats besides e point... hahahaha... e point is... ITS SUPER FUN TO GRILL UR OWN YAKITORI!!!!!!!! slowly eat, slowly grill, tok tok tok, laff laff laff... dats e life man!!!!!! (but disclaimer ah... b prepared dat u will step out of e restaurant smellin like a yakitori!!!!!!!!!!!)

fer those who r curious... its called sumi yakitori at centerpoint B2... show u pics!!!!!!! so fun!!!!!!!! =))))))))

this is wat u c b4 everythin starts... e grill is covered n e charcoal is underneath... totally like bbq!!!!!! except its in an air conditioned environment, u haf seats n u haf waiters/waitresses to serve u n change ur plates all e time... =)

this is e appetiser!!!!!!! so cool rite!!!!!!! eat vege fer appetiser!!!!!!! so healthy leh... next time whenever im hungry, wana eat healthy vege as snacks instead of munchin on biscuits/unhealthy food... ok yes e aspiring housewife rants on again... =P

check out e salmon sashimi!!!!!!!! so thick n so many!!!!!!!! e tomato is SUPER NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!! so big n fresh n sweet n e sauce is simply delicious!!!!!!!! it tastes so much like e salad sauce dat vin bought back from japan... can juz drink it leh... *drools*

tempura!!!!!!!!! e batter is VERY NICEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n e prawn is so big... so big dat after this stage, we were full liao hahaha =P

e corn is DELICIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so sweet n tasty!!!!!!!! they use e corn dat my mum alwayz buys... e mulit-color corn... actually errr onli got 2 colors la... yellow n white... kekeke... rem when u buy corn, onli buy this kinda corn ok??? =)

food... food... n more food... =P

this is wat u will c after removin e entire heating thing... think its e blower dat keeps e charcoal burning... cool huh?? =) wanted to take n post more pics of this but... this post is alreadi too long liao hahaha... n i got another thing to share wif u all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

movin on to e next event yesterdae... MR BEAN!!!!!!!!!!! vin tot it was v funny... me? ok la... some parts were real funny... some parts plain irritating (u noe la... mr bean is irritatingly evil rite... so its expected hahaha...) but dats not e point!!!!!!!! todae is not abt a movie review but abt wat happened...

1 hr into e show, when mr bean was in e car wif a lady... e screen went dark... i tot to myself 'wow first time directors use such effects... interestin...'

e cinema was quiet fer 2min... i mean, e sounds continued but nobody made any noise...

then pple started to get restless n someone behind me sayin 'wa they hafin sex ah?'... slowly pple started to realise dat there was a technical fault n someone behind stood up n hit e control room window...

BANG BANG BANG!!!!!!!!!!!

finally after 3min, e star of e dae (this man from e middle row) stood up n ran up e stairs to e control room n banged on it too... still no head popped out... so he ran down e stairs to go out n everyone applauded him n cheered... HAHAHAHAHA... white shirt man saves e dae...

so anywae, in e end, yes it was a technical fault n vin n me now can go back to suntec anytime we wan to watch mr bean AGAIN...

our tix were free from uob visa mini n it was row C (3rd row from e front)... so now we can go fer e movie again wif beta seats!!!!!!!!! wow!!!!!!!!! so blessed!!!!!!!! kekeke... =OP

i miss u alll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is wenhui n my fav foto... yong doesnt like this foto as much as e other one e 3 of us took... but cos wenhui n i like it, sori yong, im postin this instead hahahahaha... dun wori la... u as pretty as ever... kekeke... =)

neleus n me... she's flyin to US tonite... fer at least 2 years... boy r we all gona miss her... miss her whining, her smiles, her rubbish, her v fashionable dress sense, her workaholic attitude, her greedy face... but dun wori lai juan!!!!! time will zip past n maybe we will b visitin u!!!!!!!! ^_^

haha sori gerry altho we haf a pic, but e lightin not gd lehhh, foto not v clear so cant post... muz QC e fotos b4 postin on e net u noe... HAHAHAHA... take another one again soon!!!!!

eh yong, ur previous nokia fone aso take fotos wif e 'piao bai' effect hor? now change to SE still lidat... but aso nice la... look fair n beautiful... like advertisement fer olay... HAHAHAHA... =P

was tokin to lilian (ex-colleague) n she sae over here its much beta than where she is now... i agree dat e culture n pple here r great, compared to many other places... but i still prefer deloitte... n we concluded, guess its where we first started out... fer both of us, we prefer our first company n its e place where till now, we spent most of our career in... its somethin like JC... e first intake, second intake kinda feelin...

rem when i first stepped into VJ as a 2nd intake... i reali disliked it alot... cos everyone had their frens n e grp dynamics were alreadi there... felt so out of place... of cos in e end i did like e sch but no matter wat, i would alwayz haf my heart fer my 1st sch... dats where frenships were forged n grp rships start to b forged...

anywaez so i miss my team so much... been so long since yong, wenhui n me sat down to tok... miss e times when we suffered together under e hands of XXX n we held strong together... when we experienced probs wif our assistants... when we were super stressed wif our concurrent jobs... miss e dow team too... all e rubbish we toked abt, all e deadlines we had to rush to meet as a team, all e food we gobbled together, all e super late nites we endured together, all e ugly faces n terrible attitudes we gave each other...

i thank God fer u all n i miss u all...

sigh

so... my goading u on didnt wk... even by callin out names, it still didnt wk... april went to msn rita to tell her dat her name is on my blog AND STILL DIDNT COMMENT... hahahaha alamak... y u all so shy?? all fren fren here one ma HAHAHAHAHA... =P

ok anywaez, i was abit sad after a conversation i had wif a fren... he's a christian n is jaded abt life. he saes dat pple pray to ask fer things n dat holiness n happiness does not come together... God to him, does not give emotional joy... he saes pple who r so fervent fer God is cos they haf not experienced tough enuff times in life...

i wonder... how tough is considered tough... frankly, everyone has a story to tell... if u didnt noe me or didnt read my blog, u wun noe dat i haf been sufferin from a chronic illness fer e past 7 years... if u duno me at a close enuff level, u wun noe of another part of my life dat makes even my grandma feel v sad abt till todae... im sure u, readin this blog, would think dat u haf been through or r goin thro somethin real terrible dat u might juz as well b e onli person in this world who deserves all care n concern to b showered upon u...

but if u r not in this category, gd fer u! cos feelin like dat doesnt help.

wat im tryin to sae is, everyone thinks they r unhapi cos of e many thousand misfortunes they haf experienced in life... but wat abt e millions of great n wonderful things? we like to think dat we r shortchanged cos of all e bad things in life... but how richly God has blessed us wif, we so easily forget...

ez fer me to sae? i duno... we can so easily look at e Christians arnd us who r doin things which seem so evil... pple who profess their love fer God n how great God is, in a split second can b a third party in a rship which has been goin on strong fer 10 years... we can so easily look at all these pple who fall short of our expectations of a perfect human n sae 'neh neh neh!!!! Christians... tsk tsk tsk' n write off Christianity...

this post is mainly fer those who r disillusioned wif Christianity cos of e Christians they c... but put ur faith not in man but in God. for man SURELY disappoints but God never fails... man is juz man... we r all sinners, so y look at em n sae dat u r not givin this rship wif God a chance cos of dat person? then i would sae dat wow, that person is reali so great man... can cause another person to juz lose dat chance of this everlasting rship...

dedicated to you all anonymous statistics

i drafted this post in my head on e wae to meet vin after wk yesterdae... inspired by e sisters: rita n april (APRIL!!!!!!!!! FIRST TIME UR NAME MENTIONED IN MY BLOG!!!!!!! SO FUN RITE!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA)

anywae, they v cute one leh... they would check my blog pretty regularly n april will noe abt e things dat happen to me n tell rita (who sees me everydae) n rita will b shocked dat her sis noe when she didnt c or tok to me... =P

so yesterdae rita was tokin abt my ugly back n sae maybe cos e sun at sentosa aggravated it... then i was shocked how she noe i went sentosa then realised i blogged abt it... then we toked n toked n started tokin abt her sister, april... there was a dae when april's office servers were down or somethin then she couldnt send her mails, so bein bored she went to read my blog then told rita dat i cut my fringe... kekeke... i like e wae dat we all keep in touch this wae... dat u all noe wats goin on in my life... tell u a secret: i alreadi haf a draft post fer jul07... hope i can manage to post it... if i do... yippee!!!!!!! =) go n guess wat i wana post... u will NEVER guess... =P

so anywae, todae's post is dedicated to YOU. yes YOU. stop lookin arnd cos theres no one else beside u in ur cubicle...

i was thinkin... y does e counter at e side bar jump so much everydae but theres no 'life' in this blog... onli me yakkin n yakkin away... i feel like some uni lecturer givin a super animated presentation wif 4D slides (wat is e 4th dimension btw? vin jokingly told me its time... but im sure its not... but i forgot to ask him further) but my students (yes, im tokin abt YOU) juz stare at me, like mannequins sittin on e chairs... dun even noe if u r there... HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *waves vigorously*

y not u juz click on e tag board on e left side of ur screen, type ur name, n say 'hi'...? juz 2 characters... ok too much? how abt '-'? juz a dash... not too tough rite?? =) huh??? lidat aso cant do?? *thinks* ok la!!!!!! type e below...



ya la... nothin la... juz empty space... but of cos put ur name la... kekeke...

u noe y or not? i find it so amusing when within a dae or 2 from e time i post somethin, my frens will email/msn/sms me to comment abt my post - there is so much life goin on as a result of my posts but it takes place outside of e blog space but not in it!!!!!!!!! my poor blog muz b feelin so lonely... =P

v cute one leh e life dat goes on outside of e blog... like my dear joyce, email me on e dae 'u sure u got brain fog or not?' ok la it was a long email, too long to post a comment in my blog, n yes it was more personal this wae... but it b nice to c ur big name somewhere in my blog wif ur most treasured comments too... then there were pple like eddy who aso tell me he got brain fog!!!!!!! hello my fren!!!!! hahaha but then again, yes i wana sae, WE DUN HAF BRAIN FOG NO MORE!!!!! IN JESUS' NAME WE R HEALED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

guess sometimes we r down abt somethin then a teeny thing enters into our lives then we will jump at it as e excuse fer how we r feelin... like i jump at e brain fog to explain my sian-ness... then half wallow in self-pity, half think dat its alrite fer me to continue like this cos i haf a legitimate reason: cos im sick ma!!!! but no, cant let this bring us down... cos we can walk in divine health cos Jesus died on e cross fer our sins n diseases so no more of such things!!!!!!

so u, who is tellin urself dat u dun feel well todae... actually its e cao geng attitude cos u sian of wkin or too tired liao!!!!!!!!! hahaha do i sound like a fanatic to u????????? ok la i mean dun take it to extremes la! if u got gun shot liao then still sae u r well n no need to go hospital then dats not rite la... but u noe wat i mean rite... sometimes we juz allow ourselves to b sick so we can juz nua at home, but actually we can dun b sick or dun feel certain waes one...

my gosh... i toked so much???? ok i hand e time over to u, ladies n gentlemen... my dear students, amaze me wif ur speeches!!!!!!!! =))))))))))))))))))

hellooo i cut my hair!!!

heh heh u muz b thinkin 'AGAIN?????!!!!!!!!!' kekeke... aiyah ok la its juz a trim to e fringe n my length... not much difference la... but then hor... leave u to c urself... =P

my fringe was slanted... can c????? ok maybe this pic not v obvious... show u another one...

now can c e slanted fringe???? more obvious here rite???? waaaaa vin n me look so super cool man... like hollywood stars HAHAHAHAHAHA... ok fine... we r beta than dat rite?? kekekeke... =P

alamak look like alien... ok took some pics wif vin over e weekend on our visit to sentosa... so hope this one can make do la... altho we dun look dat gd... but juz focus on e fringe ok??? =P

but then again, think u all aso cant c e difference hor? hmmm... aiyah!!! nmind laaaaaaa... then share wif u all another thing!!!! went wif vin to watch 'magical sentosa' aka 'musical fountain' n i tell u... i was astounded by e kiasu attitude of e non-singaporeans!!!!! =(

wanted to take a pic to show u all but my camera battery failed me AGAIN (canon ixus batt life is SUPER SHORT) n N80 of cos is onli a camera fone, n cant take nite shots as well... so too bad... cant SHOW u all how jialat e situation was... (speakin of which, N80 no gd one leh... sony ericsson can take much nicer shots n has beta color resolution, has image stabilizer n blah blah...)

anywaez... it was 750 when we reached e main gate to check out e crowd fer e 840 show... pple we seated arnd e arena outside e gates n there were pple standin arnd n others seated in e garden outside... by 8, there was a huge crowd (maybe 80 pple?) crowdin at e gates so e pple in charge used e loudspeaker n asked everyone to find a seat cos gates onli open at 830... so slowly pple started to look fer seats... (but there were still some 30 plus pple standin arnd)

at 810, e 740 show ended n it was like an unspoken call fer everyone to stand up n rush to e gates to crowd arnd... abt 180 pple crowded there (packed like sardines) n e pple in charge announced again fer everyone to sit down cos they were not gona open e gates yet... but guess wat? onli abt 15 pple moved??? e rest? didnt understand english??? even after e 2nd announcement, maybe another 30 pple moved to find seats?

conclusion: who said singaporeans r e kiasu ones????? EVERYONE IS KIASU LOR!!!!!!!!!

in fact, its e singaporeans who were seated arnd all e time!!!!!! im sori, my patriotic self juz couldnt help but burst out... so irritating dat everyone label us as kiasu when its not us who were e ones pushin n squeezin n shoutin to each other to go to which gap in e crowd to squeeze... *rolls eyes*

i say: its others who like to complain abt us dat label us as kiasu!!!!!!! =(((((((((((((( u mean they dun form long queues fer sales? if u watch Mr Bean, u notice dat e pple formed long queues wae b4 e sale started rite??? its not onli us who form long queues to buy hello kitty toys rite...

n how come u all never yak yak yak in e tag box liao???

Brain Fog

i finally found e reason for wat has been buggin me fer e past 3 weeks!!!!!!!!!

Brain fog may be described as a state of confusion or lack of clarity. It can feel like a cloud that reduces your visibility or clarity of mind. It can cause you to become forgetful, detached and often discouraged and depressed.

One of the first things that makes us realize that there is something wrong with us is the inability to perform intellectually like we once did.

This is not the everyday forgetfulness that everyone experiences from time to time. This is a 24 hour, seven day-a-week continual struggle to appear and act normally. It's been proven by SPECT and PET scans of the brain. It really IS all in our heads - and it's real.

Brain fog is very common. It affects thousands of people, children as well as adults. It contributes to school and work problems, low self-esteem, accidents, unhappy relationships and even crime and delinquency. Although it is common, it is not a recognized diagnosis, either in medicine or psychology. Some people have been this way for most of their life and think this is normal. Brain fog can have many causes - physical, biochemical, emotional and even spiritual.

Low blood pressure may occur. The adrenal hormones increase blood pressure. Adrenal exhaustion causes reduced blood pressure, which may impair circulation to the brain and contribute to dizziness and confusion. Brain scans may show hypoperfusion, which means reduced blood flow to certain areas.

So what do you do? Perhaps you're still working and notice you are unable to even grasp the simplest part of those new forms you have to use. Perhaps people are noticing that glazed-over look you have as you struggle to understand a new instruction. Maybe you're watching the Weather Channel because it's the only channel that makes sense. You're forgetting to take the garbage out. The list is endless on how this cognitive dysfunction can effect your life.

Your personality is changing. You're no longer as spontaneous as you used to be because everything coming into your brain has to be sifted for importance - for nuances you used to catch easily. You're struggling to react appropriately to everyday situations - and it's a constant effort which adds to our stress. The good news is that Brainfog is reversible, or, at least, the progression can be halted with medications. In fact, the SPECT scan pictures above are actually of a CFIDS brain pre and post treatment (although Harvard neglects to tell us what the treatment involved).

There are anecdotal messages on the lists on various herbs and medications that have helped. Co-enzyme Q10 150mg a day seems to help many people, including myself. Gingko Biloba has adherents. Dr. Lapp says low dose Ritalin seems to jump start the brain (and I find that to be true). NADH helps some people. Neurontin may help with lessening of brainfog.

did a test... n e results r below...

You have significant brain fog

You may be experiencing severe episodes of brain fog and mental confusion and should seek professional medical care to discuss potential causes and treatments. Brain fog can feel like you've been drugged -- similar to being stoned, confused and disoriented without the accompanying pleasurable "high." It can be triggered for many reasons, including decreased estrogen production during menopause, low blood sugar, food allergies, stress, poor nutrition and lack of exercise. Other conditions, including Alzheimer's disease, depression, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue or an underactive thyroid could also be contributing to your brain fog and mental confusion.Get more information about possible reasons for your forgetfulness: Hormones Stress Nutrition Depression

ok i've had enuff of research... basically im either depressed or lack exercise or not eatin nutritious food... so strange hor this kinda things aso can exist...?!

covet ur prayers n do stand n agreement wif me dat this foggy brain thing will b gone in Jesus' name!!!!!

(now u noe y i seem to b not concentratin when u r tokin to me rite...)

an upliftin post from e previous 2 sad ones... =)

God, I have heard that you are never late, seldom early, but always on time. When I think back through the experiences of my life, I can see the truth in that statement. Thank you for always being on time. Thank you for the lessons you have taught me through waiting, through suffering, through the storms and valleys and for your faithfulness always. Thank you for the rays of sun that peaked through the clouds in the way of a praying spirit and helping hand from other Christians. Thank you for the sun that shone brightly after the storms and cloudy days, and for your son who is my sun and shield, the Lord Jesus Christ. If you had always been on my time schedule, I wouldn't have learned much in life, so I am thankful that you are always on time according to your schedule. I praise you for who you are and all you've done. May I be found worthy in your sight through the blood of the Savior. In His name I pray, amen.

waitin upon e Lord is not about givin God a deadline n after dat deadline, u will b upset. but its abt surrendin all to God n let His will b done...

let this not leave my heart Lord... dat i will wait upon u fer ALL aspects of my life... all cos i trust in You alwayz... =)

my first AND LAST accident

in my 4 years plus of driving, i had a minor accident last nite...

actually didnt wan pple to noe cos i had a few bad experiences wif some frens who like to gossip... some things dat happen in my life or some observations they made in some circumstances dat happen to me, they would take n make some comments abt it... n of cos e comments r not v nice comments... so i tend to like to keep alot of things to myself n a few close frens since then...

but who noes one of my frens juz happily told someone else todae when i shared wif him my sorrow... so i tot... ok wateva, since it is out liao then would juz let u all noe wat happened to me... goin forward i need to b more careful wif things i share unless one dae i learn e art of not carin abt wat pple sae abt me...

left joyce's place almost 11 then dropped noreen's bf home n then norman n noreen then vin home... along e wae to vin's home, had a feelin when i was nearin orchard... dat somethin bad might happen to me, so i told myself i beta b much more alert... cos i was super tired on sun due to e energy-zappin sun sch, then band prac, then a nite at norman n then joyce's place...

but when i was reachin home, dropped my guard down completely cos wat can possibly happen in a carpark??? but it was alreadi nearin midnite liao so i was anxious to get home cos if i dun sleep enuff, my mon would b black instead of blue... but there was a SUPER SLOW car in front of me... y does anyone need to drive at 18km/h????????? my gosh... so once he turned into his blk, i speeded up n due to estimation error, banged into e road divider... n punctured e rite 2 tires... =(

thank God no damage to e body n rim... but my parents were furious wif me... but thank God fer vin... he pointed me back to God n told me dat it is in God dat we find peace. pple make mistakes n we juz need to learn from em n move on...

u tot dat u shd not drive onli when u drink? think again...

lesson learnt: do not drive when u r super tired

im sad n tired n sian

vin brought up somethin last nite. somethin which i alreadi innately knew but never recognized it outright.

this place has taught me to b lazy...

i dun like to b a lazy person. i dun like to b sian every dae. i dun like to drag myself here. but there used to b a time when i did everythin so fast n so perfect n drilled into so many things n tried to find more things to do, but still haf so much of free time. this is e same reason y most of em left, n y many r still actively lookin out now... cos we r not learnin enuff, cos we r not utilized enuff, cos there is reali nothin much cos of e environment...

toked to a fren yesterdae n she too said dat my scope is too narrow. i shd move n even wif e same kinda role, i'd learn n do sooo much more... somethin which makes me so hapi n which would make me look forward to everydae... now im juz a robot churnin figures, doin reportin after reporting... actually wat we do at this level, frankly has not much biz impact... how to c more of e biz? in other places, said my fren, who was HR here...

im still waitin upon e Lord. e time is comin i noe. help me to b patient Lord, to walk n not faint, to live out e life dat u haf called me to... it is e Lord God we r serving...