sigh

so... my goading u on didnt wk... even by callin out names, it still didnt wk... april went to msn rita to tell her dat her name is on my blog AND STILL DIDNT COMMENT... hahahaha alamak... y u all so shy?? all fren fren here one ma HAHAHAHAHA... =P

ok anywaez, i was abit sad after a conversation i had wif a fren... he's a christian n is jaded abt life. he saes dat pple pray to ask fer things n dat holiness n happiness does not come together... God to him, does not give emotional joy... he saes pple who r so fervent fer God is cos they haf not experienced tough enuff times in life...

i wonder... how tough is considered tough... frankly, everyone has a story to tell... if u didnt noe me or didnt read my blog, u wun noe dat i haf been sufferin from a chronic illness fer e past 7 years... if u duno me at a close enuff level, u wun noe of another part of my life dat makes even my grandma feel v sad abt till todae... im sure u, readin this blog, would think dat u haf been through or r goin thro somethin real terrible dat u might juz as well b e onli person in this world who deserves all care n concern to b showered upon u...

but if u r not in this category, gd fer u! cos feelin like dat doesnt help.

wat im tryin to sae is, everyone thinks they r unhapi cos of e many thousand misfortunes they haf experienced in life... but wat abt e millions of great n wonderful things? we like to think dat we r shortchanged cos of all e bad things in life... but how richly God has blessed us wif, we so easily forget...

ez fer me to sae? i duno... we can so easily look at e Christians arnd us who r doin things which seem so evil... pple who profess their love fer God n how great God is, in a split second can b a third party in a rship which has been goin on strong fer 10 years... we can so easily look at all these pple who fall short of our expectations of a perfect human n sae 'neh neh neh!!!! Christians... tsk tsk tsk' n write off Christianity...

this post is mainly fer those who r disillusioned wif Christianity cos of e Christians they c... but put ur faith not in man but in God. for man SURELY disappoints but God never fails... man is juz man... we r all sinners, so y look at em n sae dat u r not givin this rship wif God a chance cos of dat person? then i would sae dat wow, that person is reali so great man... can cause another person to juz lose dat chance of this everlasting rship...