meaningful blog post

http://itsalmostnaptime.blogspot.com/2010/02/i-dont-want-my-children-to-be-happy.html

~courtesy from the blog stalker, you know who you are =Pp

sinners forgiven

This alabaster jar
Is all i have of worth
I break it at your feet, lord
It's less than you deserve

You're far more beautiful
More precious than the oil
The sum of my desires
And the fullness of my joy!

Like you spilled your blood,
I spill my heart as an offering
To my king

Here i am, take me
As an offering
Here i am, giving every heartbeat
For your glory take me

The time that i have left
Is all i have of worth
I lay it at your feet, lord
It's less than you deserve

And though i've little strength
And though my days are few,
You gave your life for me
So, i will live my life for you

Worthy, worthy
You are worthy
Worthy is the lord

Luke 7:36-50

36 Then one of the Pharisees asked Him to eat with him. And He went to the Pharisee’s house, and sat down to eat.
37 And behold, a woman in the city who was a sinner, when she knew that Jesus sat at the table in the Pharisee’s house, brought an alabaster flask of fragrant oil,
38 and stood at His feet behind Him weeping; and she began to wash His feet with her tears, and wiped them with the hair of her head; and she kissed His feet and anointed them with the fragrant oil.
39 Now when the Pharisee who had invited Him saw this, he spoke to himself, saying, “This Man, if He were a prophet, would know who and what manner of woman this is who is touching Him, for she is a sinner.”
40 And Jesus answered and said to him, “Simon, I have something to say to you.” So he said, “Teacher, say it.”
41 “There was a certain creditor who had two debtors. One owed five hundred denarii, and the other fifty.
42 And when they had nothing with which to repay, he freely forgave them both. Tell Me, therefore, which of them will love him more?”
43 Simon answered and said, “I suppose the one whom he forgave more.” And He said to him, “You have rightly judged.”
44 Then He turned to the woman and said to Simon, “Do you see this woman? I entered your house; you gave Me no water for My feet, but she has washed My feet with her tears and wiped them with the hair of her head.
45 You gave Me no kiss, but this woman has not ceased to kiss My feet since the time I came in.
46 You did not anoint My head with oil, but this woman has anointed My feet with fragrant oil.
47 Therefore I say to you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven, for she loved much. But to whom little is forgiven, the same loves little.”
48 Then He said to her, “Your sins are forgiven.”
49 And those who sat at the table with Him began to say to themselves, “Who is this who even forgives sins?” 50 Then He said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you. Go in peace.”

m1 users look here!

before vin went for his business trip, he called m1 to ask if there needs to be any configuration for his iphone to use smart sms. they said, nope, just go ahead!

*smart sms enables vin to pay only 15cents per sms instead of 60cents per sms when he is in UK and USA

take one: when vin reached, he tried to sms me and received a timeout error message. strangely, he didnt spend more than the stipulated 40sec to type the sms, as it was a copy paste. m1's response was, try again but this time, type the sms.

take two: he tried again. no error message this time. but i never received the message. m1's response after checking with their engineers - iphone cannot smart sms. vin should use another phone.

wow! what a revelation since iphone's existence since 2007! how can it be that they never knew till we called about it?!

anyway, since it was their negligence, they agreed to charge vin 15cent/sms for all his smses for this trip (at a cap of 100 smses)

on the road

since the accident, things have changed. not sure if its cos of the trauma or cos realistically people are driving more dangerously. but its scary each time i sit in the car now. 2 examples:

1) we were along ECP, entering from the CBD area, going towards the east. a black volkswagen behind vin's dad's car drove over the chevron straight into ECP. closely following him was a black lancer. they both sped off at an estimated speed of 120km/hr or more. i think it was around that speed cos they were cutting lanes very quickly and speeding past all the cars. most probably racing each other. usually cars on ECP go at 90-100km/hr if they are on the right most lane. but those 2 were much faster loh... scary right! i remember that it was not even 10pm loh... thought these daredevil drivers would only pull their stunts past midnight... really endangering the lives of all on the road leh!!!

2) i was in a cab along still road. on my left were HDBs and a pedestrian walkway, parallel to the road i was on. in front of me was the pedestrian crossing. basically, the junction i was at, looked like this: -
when the green man came on, pedestrians started crossing in front of me. a motorcyclist came out of the blue from the pedestrian walkway on my left, got on the pedestrian crossing and turned right onto the road in my opposite direction! the pedestrians stared at him in disbelief! there were about 10 of them on the road, and if he was careless, he might have just hit into any one of them! he was not rolling slowly loh... he was riding it quite fast loh! you know right, motorcycles can pick up their speed very fast... totally ignored traffic rules!

can people please care for the safety of those on the road? can people please cherish their lives and the lives of the innocent around? gosh... what is the world coming to? wanting thrill and excitement, ignoring the responsibilities that are given to them cos of the vehicles they own?

be safe.

general updates

vin's teeth look quite normal now =) cos the surgeon did fillings for him, something like temporary fake teeth extensions for the chipped teeth. so that when vin goes for his 2 week business trip, the ang mohs wont be shocked at his broken teeth.

vin took a scan of his teeth on thurs. finally saw how the metal plates look like! there are 4 and they are L-shaped, holding the fractured bone to the strong bone. at first we thought that it is one long plate across the entire fracture. interesting...

so far, high chance that 2 out of 4 teeth can be saved! praise God! but the gums above the 2 weak teeth are shrinking cos the bone there is dead. if they do not grow out, need to do bone grafting. gosh! so serious hor? praying that the bone will grow out, so no need grafting, the gums can grow and all his teeth can be saved!

as for me, the chinese sin seh said that my recovery is slow cos im walking too much. i put too much weight on the front of my foot (near the big toe area) when i walk, cos of the pain in my ankle. this results in my bone going out of position and slows down the recovery process. the ligaments are also quite badly hurt, resulting in the constant pain in my foot. whoever would have thought that a sprained ankle can be so troublesome?

God will make a way!!!!! =)))

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me

He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way

yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh praise the Lord!!!!! a miracle happened today!!!!! i wanted to go to the tie da today right? but didnt know how to cos i was afraid my boss will stop me again. guess what? amazingly, she left the office at 530pm today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she RARELY does that!!!!!!!! she usually stays till 9 plus 10 plus!

when she switched her room lights off at 530pm, my colleague gasped and muttered under her breath. so i turned around and saw the amazing sight. she went up to my boss and there seemed to be some heated exchange of words and my colleague angrily walked back to her desk. cos my boss was chasing her for some deliverable, apparently due today. but when my colleague asked her how about the report that she was chasing after? she said 'i can't wait indefinitely for you right?' that really pissed my colleague off. she was so angry that my boss expects us to work long hours but she can just leave at 530pm and say such a irresponsible sentence to her.

i told my colleague 'sorry leh, you so angry but i very happy leh!' then i sang the above song to her. HAHAHAHAHA... but my colleague laughed with me and she started shutting down her computer. haha! she said why bother staying late when boss can just leave like that? kekekeke...

happy me could then leave at 545pm to the tie da!!!!! my wonderful dad came to fetch me there =)))))

to summarize my experience:
1) in the 3 sec that she cracked my bones, the pain was excruciating. like it was breaking and i screamed my lungs out. you know la, i talk very loud normally. and when i say i screamed really loud, i think it must be quite scary for people outside =Pp

2) then she poked holes in my foot and used a device to suck out my blood. really suck blood man!!!!! the poking of holes part was really painful that i asked her if i could give up. but she was very nice and comforting and kept chatting with me throughout the 20min ordeal.

3) need to eat medication, bathe with my foot wrapped in a plastic bag (cos its now bandaged with medical herbs), and go back once every 2-3 days.

onwards to being a catwalk model soon!!!!!!!!! ^_^

my foot

finally i decided on monday that i need to go to the tie da (those chinese doctor that will massage or duno do what to sprains/fractures etc) cos my foot just didnt get any better. still swollen and purple like 1 week back. called my mum only to find out that the tie da was closed on mondays. decided then to complete my work on monday night so that i can leave office at 6pm (my official knock off time is 530pm) to make it in time before the tie da closes at 7pm.

so on monday night, i worked till almost 10pm and got my boss' approval to leave at 6pm on tues to see the tie da. actually why need to seek boss' approval, you may wonder? isn't this society now about efficiency, productivity? no longer about clocking hours? not in my cheena company. over here, if you leave at 6pm, you are deemed as a slacker and having nothing to do. that's how my boss manages her team. just too bad for my job scope, there is just too many issues in the countries that even if i work till midnight every day, also cannot clear. so no chance to leave at 6pm also =(

think my body couldnt take the long hours cos on tues morning, i woke up to a more swollen and painful foot. but i looked forward to going to the tie da cos hopefully he can help me alleviate much of the pain. but by lunch time, the right side of my back and my right leg started to have shooting pains. i knew that was the start of my back relapse. by 3 plus, it became numb, weak and i was trembling a little. but i hung on knowing that my back relapse is due to me putting my weight on my right side for too long cos of my sprained ankle. once the tie da fixes my ankle, things should be more manageable...

but at 550pm, my boss told me that i cannot go to the doctor unless it is a life and death situation. she said that we are facing a crisis now and team work is very important. the issue was that my country FC had to take off for urgent matters and my colleague needed to help load the financials into the management reporting pack. this was just a copy, paste exercise and didn't need me around. but my boss wanted me to stay in case my colleague needed to seek my advice as she felt that my colleague would not be able to handle the copy, paste alone. and that i needed to be around in case she faces with problems, else she would be too stressed when she cant resolve the issues, and wouldn't be able to complete her work...

there has to be some limit right? nobody is indispensible and i dont think that im so critical to the organization right? why cant i just go to the doctor? i am already limping so badly... if team work is very important, she can help my colleague right? or the FP&A manager can help my colleague right? why do i need to stay on just to give her moral support?

last week i thought that she was so good, cos she did the unexpected for me, let me work from home. but now she did the unexpected again, refuse to let me see the doctor unless i was dying...? how to continue working in such a place?