wats goin on?

extracted from Prime Time with God
God, sometimes I wonder why in the world I go through the things I do. What lesson is it that I am supposed to learn? I rejoice in the times You have allowed me to have "faith experiences"--times that have tested and strengthened my faith in You. I know that faith experiences are usually not easy, but they end up being a blessing in disguise. Please, hold me up and keep me from stumbling. Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others and to You. Work through me so that my faith experiences will be a testimony to help others who need a special touch. I love You, Lord. In Jesus' name, amen.

someone mentioned dat i love to extract things from Prime Time with God. cos i was tellin e person dat vin writes well unlike me... either full of mundane stuff or tryin to share abt some Christian stuff but in a not so deep wae... i share more on my experiences whereas vin would b more of like a teacher n expound on truths n stuff... im more shallow maybe? kekeke... but i rather believe dat im a more FEELING person but vin is a more THINKING person... sounds gd? *nods*

anywaez life is ok... jem asked me last nite y i alwayz sae my dae/week is ok onli? but wat else can i sae? im sad, real sad, lost, real lost, but no i dun wana focus on dat cos wateva u focus on will magnify... y wallow in self-pity n depression when we can look toward God n things will get beta... i feel like a tadpole in a huge ocean... struggling to stay alive, struggling for gasps of air, but fixin my eyes on e sun, noein dat as long as i fix my eyes there, i cant go too far off n start sinkin into e deep ends of e ocean...

gona change my hairstyle this sat... nothin can b worse than now... =P look forward to seein me from sat onwards!!!!!

in case we forget my hairstyle b4 e cut... this is it... vin n me on my bdae... ^_^

vin is goin abroad... will miss him... his bdae is comin!!!! ^_^

It's my birthday!!! ^_^

Rita n mei ling were sayin juz now dat as u get older, e presents get lesser... v true leh... as u get older, pple tend to juz bring u out fer meals or juz send an sms... hahaha guess dats life... as pple get older, less energy to do things... kekeke... but i reali appreciate all who remembered this dae of my life!!! ^_^ most pple rem my bdae cos its in their hp calendars!!! so smart!!! hee... i alwayz write in my organiser then when i change to a new one each year, all e bdaes get lost... so pardon me if i forget urs... =P

that brings me to my hp shoppin again... =) need to get a gd fone which can b my organiser so i can key all e impt dates in it n FOREVER REMEMBER UR BDAESSSSSS ^_^ so i decided not to get a pda cos so far, the reviews haf been BAD BAD BAD... O2 and Dopod alwayz hang... HP is ugly... Sony Ericsson is too bulky... must remember that my criteria is WiFi!!!

so i decided to get... *drums rollin* N80!!!!!!! but the drawback is e camera does not haf autofocus... n its a tad bit bulky... other than that... heard dat its slow... but think shd b fine... meanwhile, will continue THE HUNT... n hopefully by dec 22nd can decide on a fone so i can BUY BUY BUY!!!!!!

went to Kuishin-Bo jap restaurant last nite wif joyce/grace/norman fer my bdae celebration n wah sehzzz its a huge spread man!!!!! sadly couldnt haf enuff stomach to try EVERYTHIN... but it was real fun rushin wif joyce to get e half hour specials HAHAHA... it was so funny cos once e person announces 'ladies and...', joyce n i will:
1) sit straight up n our faces will light up n we will look at each other (regardless of whether we were engaged in an interestin conversation wif norman n grace or doin somethin else); then
2) we would stand up n try to look like we were glamorously catwalkin to get more food (while tryin extremely hard to stop giggling excitedly) when actually we were wishin our legs were longer n our strides were bigger so that we could b e first 30 to get e specials... HAHAHAHA...

2 words... GIAN BENG... HAHAHAHHAA =P

(even though we were full to e brim but somehow our bodies controlled us... its e singaporean spirit in us la... )

*we are singapore, we are singapore
we will stand together, hear e lion roar*

hmmm maybe i shd sing it like this...

*we are singapore, we are singapore
we will grab e specials, at e food galore*

okok anywaez had a real smashin time wif em n learnt a few hokkien sentences from francis which i would MOST GLADLY TEACH ALL OF U!!!!!!!!!!!! so please ask me ask me wat i learnt!!!!!!!!! hahaha joyce, hold francis back if he rushes after me wif a parang when we go to wesley... HAHAHAHHAA =P

Two Years of Free Wi-Fi for Singapore

extracted from http://www.ida.gov.sg/

Come 2007, Singaporeans will be ushering the new year with at least 24 months, or two years, of free (basic tier) wireless connectivity at up to 512 kbps speeds almost everywhere - thanks to IDA's 'Wireless@SG' programme.

Wireless@SG is Singapore's new wireless broadband programme that will be developed and run in the next two years by three local wireless operators. This October, IDA accepted the proposals from iCELL Network Pte Ltd, QMAX Communications and Singapore Telecommunications Ltd to the government's two-year Call-For-Collaboration (CFC) to kick-start the nation's progressive deployment of a widely-available wireless broadband network by Sep 2007. This network will complement and extend broadband access currently available in the homes, offices and schools, to public places.

Today, while Singaporeans on-the-go have ready access to voice connectivity (e.g. through mobile phones), connectivity for data-centric devices (e.g. PDAs and laptops) is readily available only in Wi-Fi hotspots run by individual service providers. The CFC changes this. With the two-year Wireless@SG programme, the number of public 'hotspots' will grow 5-fold from the current 900 to about 5,000. The three operators will bump up the number of Wireless@SG 'hotzones' in high-traffic, public areas, such as the Central Business District, downtown shopping belts like Orchard Road, and HDB Town Centres, to make wireless broadband a ubiquitous access mode by September 2007. With this, Singaporeans can truly enjoy seamless broadband on-the-go - we need not be home or in the office to now access all our favorite Internet-based services like emails, instant messages, online games and VOIP calls.

The three operators are extending this two-year free offering with unlimited usage to all residents and visitors in Singapore, including tourists and business travellers. The sign-up details will be made known from December 2006 by the operators.

Meanwhile, Singaporeans and other users in Singapore will be pleased to know that they do not have to be existing subscribers of these operators to enjoy the free service. In fact, they can choose to sign up at any time with any one of the three operators, and be able to access all the three operators' networks with one account.

To connect to the Wireless@SG wireless broadband network, a user just needs a WiFi-enabled device, such as a laptop computer or a PDA, a web browser, and a registered Wireless@SG account. With this registered account, the user is able to roam within any of Wireless@SG's coverage areas, regardless of the operators' network.

Note:1. Other wireless technologies, e.g. WiMax, potentially provide more extensive coverage. However, WiMax is expected to be available for widespread commercial rollout only from 2008. There is also already a large number of Wi-Fi enabled devices like notebooks, tablet PCs, PDAs and increasingly mobile phones with built-in Wi-Fi capability today, with Wi-Fi support built into many operating systems. In addition, many offices and home users are already accessing office and home applications over private Wi-Fi networks.

I'm sooo excited!!! Got a 200 bucks discount voucher from Starhub to get me to sign up fer their mobile service... gonna use it to get an O2 Atom!!! u guyz think its gd??? then i can access e net 24/7!!! broadband when im home n wireless@sg when im out!!! ^_^

WhatIsLifeAllAbout.com.sg

Well, Jean kept persuading me to blog, so no choice la, have to blog something to give her some face..hahahaha... ;)

Was just thinking about life in general - one of my retrospective moments... I'm sure everyone of us had one of those days when you just felt like you're going through the motions in life: purposeless, meaningless, directionless ... It's hard to explain but you know what I mean.

When I was young, I used to wonder if I'm the only human being alive in this world. The idea of 'the matrix' came to me when I was at the age of 5 (child prodigy?). I contemplated the notion that I was in this world alone - everyone else is not real - it's all a show put up to deceive me. If only I had the resources to put all that up into a movie, I might not be working my ass off now..

Isn't it interesting just to think about life? What's life about anyway? Tried googling, and these are some results I got:
- the course of existence of an individual; the actions and events that occur in living
- the period between birth and the present time
- Expression of self as a personal and physical experience
- Life is a breakfast cereal made of whole grain oats, and distributed by the Quaker Oats Company

Ok the last one's totally out, but the rest aren't exactly what I'm looking for either..

This is the reason why it's extremely important to find a purpose in life - As the Aussie would say, "you gotta know what you're here for, 'mate".

The Bible says that "without vision, the people perish" Proverbs 29:18
Jesus said, "I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full" John 10:10

"So how do I know what I'm here for?" - one may ask.

That's not for us to define.
To be sure, I believe our purpose lies within us - it's in us. But you're not gonna find it inside, someone has to unlock it and show it to you.

That's where Our Creator comes in. The manufacturer of a watch knows its function - whether its a dinner watch, a sports watch, a kid's watch...etc. Our Creator knows what we're created for.

"My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be." Psalm 139:15-16

Does that mean that nothing I can do can change my life? So why bother working so hard? Why bother doing anything at all, since "all the days ordained for me were written in [God's] book"? This launches us into the age-old debate of predestination and free-will. Personally, I acknowledge that God is sovereign (predestination). However, I also acknowledge that God has given all men free-will - the ability to choose and make decisions about their own lives (which usually has an impact in other people's lives). How these 2 come together is a mystery that God Himself knows. Maybe its hidden in the Word of God - in which case I hope I will one day be enlightened.

For the record, I'm not exactly "working my ass off". It's still here, and getting a tad flabby. Which shows that life has been good to me - I've a good job, a good family, a good girlfriend, good friends, a good church, and a FANTASTIC GOD! Just that I've been sneezing the whole day, which probably set me off to a more philosophical bent tonight...

fRieNdSss

ok to update from e last post... i haf reconciled wif him... as expected, it was a misunderstanding... no prize to b given... juz dat i reali treasure friendships alot so when my fren thinks of me in a manner dat is uncalled for, it would haf a great impact on me... as jem said 'ho, i didnt noe u r so emo'... ya im actually v emo... when i watch sad movies, i will cry like siao... like a tap with no wae to turn it off... but dun b scared... i dun cry like 'BOOHOOHOO' la... v nice n dainty one (ya dun puke laaa... hahaha)...

anywaez yea so hapi dat this is resolved... wk matters, too bad la... out of my control ma... juz do my best fer God loh... wkin fer e Lord God, not fer men ma... so now its a bright n sunny dae wif birds chirping arnd in my little world...

was juz thinkin abt how bz i've been... n wonderin where did all my time go to... after worship sunday is over, wana start to meet up wif my frens again!!! when wenhui is back (her honeymoon like super long sia... sure she is hafin a fantastic time in turkey man...), wana do a stayover at yong's place again!!! (yong if u r readin this, u never knew abt it hor? hahaha plannin a stayover at ur place without u noein kekeke) then this sat meetin joyce n norman!!! so hapiii...

y m i suddenly so reminiscent of e oldie frens?? cos yesterdae i saw my pri sch fren - mark wong n my jc fren - ma yingjie!!! its e strangest kinda meetings... here i was, laughin wif vin n tryin to find e carpark lobby in e humongous vivocity wif my parents n suddenly this hsbc guy walked alongside me n asked 'where r u goin?' i turned arnd n there was mark wong!!!!! HAHAHAHA so funny... =P then 3 hours later, vin n i were goin to e arena below his place cos there was a tree planting dae n MINISTER MENTOR LEE KUAN YEW was there to grace e occasion... i was excitedly walkin into e arena wif vin n lookin out fer MM Lee when a face popped up in front of me n there was philip ma yingjie!!! hahaha...

eh jean's frens out there readin this post... I AM GONA MEET UP WIF U REAL SOON... once worship sunday is over n i get used to this double job life n not get so tired... then here i come!!!!! wana go out wif thom/joe/mel/yx too... used to sit arnd at bedok wif em eatin ba chor mee n stingray fer supper... still got who? so many moreee... danielle kuek!!! faster do e gals stayover thing laaa kekeke... ooo time fer e quarterly meet up wif mr andy hoe aso... jean tan!!!!! when we meetin??? =P waaa k la beta stop thinkin so much liao... onli got 24 hours n 7 daes n 4 weeks n 12 months... still wana go kim ling's place again to play wif reuben!!!! ahhhhh okok beta stop... focus on e now n present!!!

WORSHIP SUNDAY ON NOV 19TH!!!! COME N HAF A FANTASTIC TIME WORSHIPPING GOD!!!!! CHARIS METHODIST CHURCH @ KOON SENG ROAD 1115AM

an update...

many dear frens haf come to me askin me for updates on my life... there r so many things to sae but somehow i duno where to start... do u haf e feelin dat sometimes things r beta left unspoken? cos no matter wat u sae, nothin can change... so wats e point of even tokin abt it? but i guess i will share on some things dat might explain e zombie-fied look n sad aura dat those who haf seen me in e past few weeks might haf caught a glimpse of...

Work
u never noe who is wif u or against u... one thing fer sure - guard urself wif all might. dun b too trustin wif pple u deem as frens cos they might juz turn against u e next min to speak evil of u... this is wat my boss told me n i assume he was tryin to hint at somethin... so i beta heed his advice. its weird. when i was wif deloitte, i took almost 2 years to warm up to my colleagues n finally realise dat these r e pple whom i can forge life-time frenships wif... cos of this closeness n bond we share, it split over to my new company where i tot e same principle applies... sadly, e commercial world is not e same. no wonder my managers used to tell me dat in audit, we r v protected in all wayz... n im sure office politics n game-players takes up a v big slice of e protection we used to haf, dat they were tokin abt...

aside from e bloodshed dats goin on in e office, of cos its e job scope issue... im currently handling 2 pple's wk... cos my colleague left n my boss told me to handle my wk as well as e other colleague's wk load. well, gd chance of learnin i tell myself... even though i haf no say in whether i wana take it up or not, or whether it is humanly possible... but hey, all things r possible in Christ. we r victors, we r conquerors!! n i haf been tellin vin i m a lion... cos i wana b Christ-like n He is e lion of Judah!!! y do i need to b afraid??? but of cos, im still human... so at times i might b brought down cos my physical n mental n emotional self cant take it anymore... but i will seek to praise e Lord in ALL CIRCUMSTANCES!!!

Friends
Last nite i got 'told off' by a close brother. cos of a harmless comment i put to his sister... his sis has alwayz been unhapi abt a few aspects of him n one dae i asked her to speak to him wif regards to one of e aspects cos i felt it would b put beta to him if its from someone so much closer to him. who noes, he took it from his mum cos his sis was afraid to tell him. then he got upset wif me, makin me feel dat i was tremendously wronged. cos in e first place, i was thinkin for him, dats y i didnt wana tell him myself n since his sis aso feels e same wae as me, its beta fer her to tell him. n aso, i didnt mean it in a malicious way, so y did he haf to take it so hard? but wat m i to sae? he told me no matter wat, he will back his sis up cos they r v close. so does kinship mean dat u protect e person n harm all others who is not family juz cos of some internal thing dats goin on in e family? i duno. someone, explain this sibling thing to me... even love has to be logical n rational, y not kinship? u dun haf to tell me 'yes my sis is wrong' but juz dun blame everythin on me when its alreadi existent in wat she thinks abt u...

think i'll onli share these 2 things in my life... e rest, let's juz keep e door shut on them... as those v close to me know, i can bury things v well. so i can actually alwayz appear v hapi to everyone n nobody would noe dat im actually goin through a v tough time... shianni asked me to blog abt how i truly feel... but hey, do u come here to read abt my sorrows or joy? who seeks to feel upset? everyone seeks to b encouraged, to b lifted up, to read some light-hearted stuff... i guess sorrows juz ought to b kept to oneself... maybe to those few who r seekin to b there fer e other party, then sorrows can b revealed face-to-face... so i'll leave u all wif this verse:

Philippians 1:3-6
3I thank my God every time I remember you. 4In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy 5because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, 6being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

God has a great plan fer us. a plan to prosper us, not to harm us. take heart cos He noes n He cares n He will bring us through... He will never let us carry too much dat we cannot bear... God is good... ^_^

extracted from Prime Time with God
Dear God, I know that You have a plan for my life. Sometimes, I'm not sure I'm following the right path that will fulfill Your perfect will. I pray that You will give me discernment to make the right choices, and to recognize when You place someone in my life to give direction and point out truths that will prepare me for the path I am to follow and the circumstances I am to face. Lord, please give me strength, grace, and unction from on high to not turn back neither to one side or the other, but to remained focused straight ahead on You. In Jesus' name, amen.