Thursday, October 19, 2006

Choices

life is so interesting... if u notice, we r a paradox... we can complain abt XYZ till e cows come home then when ZYX (e reverse) happens, we can still complain n b unhapi... dun understand? ok please continue readin... =P

so i was at a crossroads a month ago... but it peaked 2 weeks ago (wow onli 2 weeks but it seemed sooo long... time reali drags when u feel miserable man hahaha) n i was at a total loss regardin my future... it seemed dark n bleak n i didnt noe wat i was doin, wat i was expectin, wat would happen...

but i muz admit i didnt fast n pray n seek God daily abt it... too caught up in my sorrow (irritating humans alwayz wallow n self pity n never go to e source hahaha) dat i onli said a few short prayers this dae n dat dae n seeked God here n there... but God is alwayz so good... so faithful... n in Him we trust n noe dat He has it all worked out fer us if onli we juz give our lives to Him n walk in His ways...

yes i almost left but God told me to wait. so i waited painstakingly... though things r not settled... not even 20% confirmed but at least things r lookin up... i finally feel abit happier, there IS a hope n a future dat God has in store for us... dat is wat faith is abt... believin in God even when e results r yet unseen cos He is a faithful Father!!!

lesson learnt: in times of trouble n downtime, alwayz confess dat our God is a sovereign God cos most definitely He will lift us up in due time...

so therefore everyone, i continue to wait. things r lookin up. they alwayz r lookin up even when im lookin down... lets learn to alwayz look up Heaven-ward... ^_^

(realised never explain my introduction... so when things get beta n i m faced wif a few options, i can aso feel sian dat i duno wat to do n wat to choose hahaha... but no i shall not complain cos is there anyone who complains abt e blessings in their lives??!!!)