haf u ever wondered...

if life is fair...? hahaha sound v depressing rite? =Pp

if u reach office everydae at 810am n leave at 6 plus onli to c those arnd u reach at 930-10am n leave at 6 sharp or maybe earlier... will u wonder, y m i wkin so hard fer? dats y i try to go fer 2 hr lunch once a mth to make myself feel beta cos even they aso go fer 2-3 hr lunches...

if e person who is onli 1 yr senior in experience than u n supposed to do an extended role but refuses to n wants to push wk to u dat is supposed to b done on their end, how would u feel? dats y i juz choose not to think too much n juz try to finish all dat i haf on my plate as fast as possible so dat can kena these kind of uneccessary arrows...

if u r wkin ur ass off n pple like piano teachers etc wk e same amt or less n get more than twice ur salary n then declare a minimal amount to HDB n can get a HDB flat even when they r wae off the income ceiling, how would u feel? dats y i try not to look at pple lidat...

im in those kinda sian moods cos sometimes i look at wat i haf to kena n e responsibilities dat pple shirk off dat in e end impact my life n i feel v depressed. read an article abt a lady who wanted to throw her mum to e old aged home. if she herself doesnt wana take care of her mum, y shd anyone else? of cos e old age home would cos they profit from this. but if there were no such thing as old age homes... how? hire a full time maid who specializes in takin care of old pple? gd la... boost e economy fer dat country where e domestic help came from. or best if e old woman had another child. but if e other child is financially stretched or need to take care of their in-laws, how? woe to e one who is filial cos they suffer most.

sometimes when we c e harsh realities of life, we get real disillusioned n drained by e cruelness of society. no wonder pple alwayz sae dat e gd ones die first. cos they get used by e cold hearted pple till they haf no more space to breathe n juz disppear from exhaustion. think i haf a serious issue dat i need to resolve wif God... im gettin v bitter cos of e pple arnd me...

one thing abt me is dat i get affected v easily by e unfairness of life arnd me. but i noe i need to hold strong to e truth dat God is fer me. even though things seem v unfair n im crushed in all waes but dats onli temporal cos this will onli make me stronger. once i take on these added responsibilities dat was not supposed to b mine, i become stronger n can handle more. too bad fer those who choose to throw this all at me... cos i choose to benefit from all this n not b struck down!!!!! okok... i muz focus on God... lettin myself b crushed by all this is no gd no gd...

pray fer me, those who noe wat im goin thro...